Beautiful Tragedies

mood: waiting

song: sountrack

locale: bedroom floor

of all the most remarkable things that have happened in the short span of my lifetime.. i have found it. The one thing that makes a person most happy in the universe in which we live is God. He truly is. and His love is so amazingly given.

the hippie band is the new fad of choice that i follow quite dedicatedly. i have several.. no one else seems to understand that it is quite the rage now.. according to myself and noone else. i prefer it that way. individuality must speak out in some way. whether it be acceptable or not at any given time is adherently decided by persons such as Elizabeth Bennet. she is quite the heroine you know. quite a lovely girl. such gumption all wrapped up in one body should be resisted in today's time and place, and yet we seem to encourage it in the most unbeguiling ways.

swallows.. i've become quite obsessed with the little darlings as of late. they interest me to no end. i believe its the symbolism. freedom. uniqueness. individual strengths and hope that it brings.

As written before, i'm determined to fall in love. i have found the man i wish to settle with in the future, now it is just to convince him that we are quite destined to be in unity with one another. he may not quite see it my way, but i hope he shall one day. his name? Tim Robertson. Quite a handsome bloke.. strong features.. good shape. But what has capture this yielding heart? not his good looks or his smothering charm, or his good manners, or standing in society, no. it is his Heart that seems to be as big as the sky.. and as open. His love is passionate.. and growing.. all in the nature of our Saviour Jesus. that is what will bring us together.. that is what will bring us to life. that is what will determine our livilihood.. and our happiness. and i cannot wait for him to love me. so i can get started on liking him. backwards? possibly. but it will work. and i'll keep you posted.

he will be my beloved one day. which is a good thing. and he just discovered his need for coffee today, so there is hope for the two of us yet in this life. we both tend to have nerd and free spirit qualities, and to the blessing of the Lord they will work out it in the best way..

the beautiful tragedy? that he is unaware.

that he cannot see me as of yet.. but he will.

that i had to go through so many different guys to end up at him.

that i couldn't wait long enough to let him be my first everything.

that i have everthing to give to him.

that he loves another.

that i may never be good enough or deserving of a man of his caliber.

that i act like a git in his presence.

but thats all going to be fine. (: