"Walk with me." It wasn't said suggestively. i tumbled out of his side of the truck as he pulled my hand to catch up to his fast pace. Winding through the trees, we came to the small enclosed gazebo just beside the parks edge. Whipping round to face me, he placed his palms upon my cheeks. "Do you love me? Honestly and for real?" I could only shake my head in agreement.
"Will you do something for me?" his eyes were burning with the intensity.
"You know i would. Anything."
Gently, he tugged me closer to his body. I resisted. Tugging gently on the collar of my shirt, he lowered his lips to mine, breathing in the intoxicating exhilation. Tenderly caressing the curves of my shirt, his kisses moved lower. Sharp gasps of air escaped my mouth. i couldn't believe what i was doing. but in the still of my subconscious, i was waiting for that shining magical moment, when i would emerge a woman, and he would never consider leaving me.
2 months later
"oh...my... Crap. Geeze! What. The. Heck. Were. You. Thinking?!!" the tiny little strip turned pink as i held it out before my bewildered eyes. How had this happen? oh, right. i remember.
shrugging off the nausea, i made my way to my bedroom, ready to pick up any large heavy object and take a good swing at something breakable.
"uhhhhhhh.....oh snap." the waves were coming harder now. how was i going to tell him? was i going to tell him? was i going to tell anybody? i left for school in 3 days, and was traveling all the way to Vivian, a whole 30 minutes away. that wouldn't provide enough privacy for anybody. oh my gosh. How am i going to tell Ty?
Glancing at his phone, Ty recovered the one missed call. Flipping through new texts, one in particular caused a peculiar expression to cross the handsome face. dialing the all too familiar number, Ty rubbed at his temples for comfort. Finally a voice was heard on the other line.
"ASHTON! Whats going on? Are you sick? Hurt? Do i need to come home?"
in seconds, the panic melted to a somber numb that washed over his person. dropping to the floor, ty sat back in astonishment. Their lives were over.
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Monday, August 1, 2011
Ty & Ash
I couldn't really help the emotions coursing through my body. Love lost is love won, but Ty was my whole world. Without him there was nothing left for me to do. I could go to school and really buckle down into a career, yet there was still that haunting feeling that everything was going to change for the worse, and that was something i couldn't bear facing.
Ticking off the last hours of summer pierced my body with agony. Burning behind my eyelids were the tears of remorse. Days and weeks of the calendar flickered through the air, tangible with tantric scenes seared into the ridges of my mind. Clutching the sides of my chest, I waited for him to pull the truck around to the front door. Melodramatic as it was, tonight was our last dinner, detailed by the stiff silence. Everything had been uncomfortable. Neither of us had barely uttered a word, nor looked at each other. Of course in the backs of our minds, it was completely ridiculous, we would obviously be seeing each other. Finality just must have that effect on people.
Rumbling to attention, the cherry red auto was waiting for me to come inside. Little mournful drops of woe started sprinkling from the sky, sort of an omen capturing the moment. He pulled around to our spot in the grove. In the dark, i could feel his eyes searching out my face, his thumb running worried circles onto the back of my hand and fingers. "What have you been hiding from me all night?" he whispered over the rain.
i shook my head. speaking was only going to force the tears.
Slowly pulling me to his side of the car, he wrapped his well formed arms around the shudders that were threatening to compel the sobs just caught in my throat. "Shhh... Baby, it's all gonna be OK! I promise. Don't be so upset. We'll make this work."
I batted my wet eyelashes up at him. "I love you." Blinking a few times up at the ceiling, one glimmering tear shone in the moonlight, emotions unknown surging like electricity.
Ticking off the last hours of summer pierced my body with agony. Burning behind my eyelids were the tears of remorse. Days and weeks of the calendar flickered through the air, tangible with tantric scenes seared into the ridges of my mind. Clutching the sides of my chest, I waited for him to pull the truck around to the front door. Melodramatic as it was, tonight was our last dinner, detailed by the stiff silence. Everything had been uncomfortable. Neither of us had barely uttered a word, nor looked at each other. Of course in the backs of our minds, it was completely ridiculous, we would obviously be seeing each other. Finality just must have that effect on people.
Rumbling to attention, the cherry red auto was waiting for me to come inside. Little mournful drops of woe started sprinkling from the sky, sort of an omen capturing the moment. He pulled around to our spot in the grove. In the dark, i could feel his eyes searching out my face, his thumb running worried circles onto the back of my hand and fingers. "What have you been hiding from me all night?" he whispered over the rain.
i shook my head. speaking was only going to force the tears.
Slowly pulling me to his side of the car, he wrapped his well formed arms around the shudders that were threatening to compel the sobs just caught in my throat. "Shhh... Baby, it's all gonna be OK! I promise. Don't be so upset. We'll make this work."
I batted my wet eyelashes up at him. "I love you." Blinking a few times up at the ceiling, one glimmering tear shone in the moonlight, emotions unknown surging like electricity.
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